Life Equals Learning

The last I posted, I was chatting about the frustrations I have encountered in life. It was more of a rant than a continuation of my journey towards self improvement. It has been over a month since that post and I stand in a slightly different place than then. I have been more busy, clearly (as I have taken more of a break here than I planned when I started this domain), but have also been able to reflect more on myself and my goals. Nobody is perfect, and although I will continue to set goals (and achieve them!) In small increments, I have realized I will always be learning new things about myself, and my journey will change. If I just aimed for the top of the mountain, put my head down and climbed, I would get to the top…but what would I miss along the way? More importantly, where would I go next? I am current sitting on a plane and wanting to be productive rather than just watch the screen 10 inches in front of me (no joke, it feels like these seats are that tight, and my butt is getting numb too..). I wanted to share my last month and half in all of the points of view of health, with the overall shadow of lessons learned (and to stay positive and grateful, where I am now because of these lessons). Physically, I am proud to say have noticed a positive difference from staying focused on my goal of becoming more fit on the outside and feeling better on the inside. This, as mentioned in previous posts, is my easiest point of health to work on. Partly because it is measurable (ie amount of weight lifted, number of push-ups/sit-ups, time holding the plank), and partly because it makes me feel good so it’s easier to commute to (mental health: see, it’s all connected). When I put on my clothes in the morning, without sounding narcissistic, I take an extra minute to admire what I see. What I’ve learned though, is that as easy as I find it to get the routine of exercise, it is just as easy to fall out of that with one bad week. I’ve signed up for classes which I liked, and committed to at least 2 a week. Then, I worked 5 12 hour shifts and told myself I was too tired. Then, I worked 4 night shifts and instead of following my plans of forcing myself to go to the gym at least half of those shifts, I went to one and convinced myself it wouldn’t have been effective the other nights and watched TV on my break instead. This is not to downgrade my progress, but now that I see this pattern I have learned, to continue in my physical health, it is important to get good exercise every day so that when I feel like saying no I can remember my commitment to myself. Wake up, do 10 minutes of heart racing workout, then get on with my day AND continue to sign up for classes at least 2 days a week. Also, summer will be easier because I’ll have my bicycle, and mountains to hike! Healthy eating is the next most logical aspect of my health, and probably where I have made the most progress. The last few months I have learned so much about eating better, and cravings for bad food have become less and less..except maybe when I’m on vacation Or.. night shift Anyway, this is my life and my business and I have met so many amazing people teaching about healthy nutrition and fruits and vegetables so I have learned a lot in this area of health. Additionally, I have found a very simple way to get FRESH produce in my living room ALL YEAR and have all sorts of fun health parties such as “salad in a jar” and “smoothie prep” that make it easier to eat well. However, once again, I’m human. I have learned I have a weakness for coffee. I never used to drink it, but now I subconsciously grab for it every morning and every time I’m at work. It’s not that coffee is bad for you in small amounts, but for me it leads to other unhealthy eating. It’s like the exercise, once I give in once it’s a lot easier to give in again. I am also learning that life is about balance. If I restrict myself from all unhealthy eating for too long, one indugance and all rules go out the window.

As for my financial health my progress hasn’t been as high as the previous areas of health, but the learning has been exponential. I think this area of health is most important to lay a solid foundation before seeing much progress and I can see my seedlings sprouting. The greatest help to my financial health was going to an amazing uplifting conference where I was inspired to set goals, change my negative thoughts to positive, and practice visualization. Visualization can be hard, but that leads me to my fourth corner of healthy: mental and spiritual.

I realize now that these two go hand in hand. It’s difficult to have a healthy mind without faith in the unknown. The universe. A higher being. Whatever you choose to call it, it is important to believe in something greater than yourself and I am still learning this. I thought I would finish this lengthy post with the area of health that I struggle with most, and that I have gained the most learning. This journey began because of a trying time that I went through that started physical but has been challenging me mentally since it happened. I have maintained a positive attitude throughout but I have also learned there is a time to grieve and feel sorry for myself too.. it’s okay to not be happy all the time, and that’s hard for me to own up to.. as long as its not for too long.

That said, I’m excited to be travelling again, escape which I thrive in, in all aspects (except maybe eating)

See you after China! ❤

Healthy finances, Healthy mind

Some Days are Hard

**I wrote the first half of this 5 days ago, and have continued on today**

Today I just want to talk about my feelings. Things I have learned about myself through the feelings nobody really likes to feel, but which are very necessary in life. I came back from a wonderful vacation, refreshed and ready to hit my goals again. I also felt that I needed to work as much as possible to make up for the money spent in Hawaii, so I have been working full time hours and even considering picking up extra hours on my days off.

At the end of the last three 12 hour day shifts, I was reminded why I am doing this. Why I am working to be more financially healthy. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE what I do. I love taking care of entire families, responding to emergencies, listening to concerns, and providing comfort. Just a small piece of what I do, but I do love my job. The parts I don’t love are the parts I don’t have control over. I don’t love that I can’t choose a better lifestyle for these families or help them get to a safer place. I don’t love that I am arguing with people above me to provide the best care I can, to get the best equipment possible, and to provide the best and safest staff for all of my patients. I love that when I go to work I am supported by my colleagues, I get to socialize, and I get to help people. I don’t love that I can’t choose my hours, that too many people are working sick or burnt out because we love the job, the families, and feel obligated to be there for them ALL the time. I finished the long weekend, which I thought might be more relaxing because on weekends, though health care is 24/7, it tends to be less busy because there are no managers, less staff overall, and less tests etc. Well, that’s not always true, and of course, that is what I signed up for. Still, wouldn’t the world be a better place if health care workers could meet families in places they are comfortable in? Wouldn’t it be better if we could catch diseases before they happened? Wouldn’t it be better if we didn’t need extra units, extra staff, and extra equipment because people were just HEALTHIER?